Sunday, March 17, 2013

Nurture NO. 11

I'm tired and I am going to bed.
It was a whirlwind week:  soccer started in full force, we had some sickness and children home from school, friends over, playing at the park, beautiful weather, football practice, and the everyday of dinner, homework, scouts, activity days, yw church activities, and me being exhausted.

The week felt rough in some other ways; being deeply disappointed by the way some other things went for my family.

I see a lot of blessings and I see some things I'm glad I'm past and hope we don't relive them again.  I did a good job with not complaining and we worked really hard on the specifics of our budget.  I fell off the wagon of no sugar two days I had a cookie and a few bites of cheesecake but now I'm back on. I feel great being the master of myself in that way again, being in control of what I am eating and making deliberate choices.

I am looking forward to a new week; especially knowing that as soon as we make it through this one we have spring break.  I love the nice weather and am having so many opportunities to laugh with my children over Faye's latest antics.

Sailing On,

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

I did it!

I feel so happy about this quilt.  I'm happy I did it and happy I followed my instincts on my fabric choices and happy with how it turned out, imperfections abounding.
The front:
The back: 
and the binding:
Now that this is finished I'm wanting to do another, and another, and another.  There is something so satisfying about creating something you find beautiful and putting hard work into it.  Such a good feeling.  If you haven't tried modern quilting and you think it's just for old ladies I dare you to try it!! You may get hooked. 

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Nurture No. 10

Time is cruising by and I'm constantly wondering if I'm doing enough, being enough, doing what really matters.

I feel thankful for so many things today.  Thankful for an amazing family and extended family that teach me by their examples and the way they handle struggles.

I had the fun :) experience of realizing that I am overly reactionary when it comes to seeing what my children have done wrong or what mistakes they have made.  I tend to over react just a bit.  I have been humbled by watching the example of parents around me (including Kurt) who remain calm and show love to their children without freaking out like I do.  I'm not sure how I'm going to change this about myself but it is going to happen, and soon.  I don't want that 'don't tell Mom, she'll freak out' thing going on any more. Even though I'm not a huge fan of having my weaknesses front and center for all the world to see, I'm thankful that I can see this for what it is so I know how I need to change.  I have hope for and I believe in change.

I am so proud of my oldest daughter who gave her first talk in church today.  She was excited about the assignment, prepared well all throughout the week, and did it 100% on her own.  This means standing up in front of a congregation of 200 people (in our congregation 55% of those are under the age of 18) and speaking for 5 minutes.  I cannot express in words how proud I am of her.  Her willingness to do the assignment and how well she did it.  I love her.

I am thankful that we were able to have a little celebration for my sister in law's birthday today.  We love living close to them and love having them in our lives.   My children are overjoyed to see cousins on a regular basis and it was so much fun to watch the arm wrestling and uno playing tonight.  It makes my heart smile to see these interactions and to know what a great family I have.  We aren't a perfect family, but we Sheffields / Smiths are a GREAT family.
Clark made it through his dental surgery on Friday and I've been worried about him ever since.  His mouth seems fine but his breathing has been disrupted by the breathing tube that he had in during the surgery.  I keep thinking it will be better soon but it hasn't gotten better so we will check into that more tomorrow.  I'm thankful that we have medicines and inhalers and a pulse ox at home so that we can keep tabs on him.  I'm thankful that we have great health coverage because of Kurt be willing to work so much and so hard for us.

I loved the snow this week - I felt so safe and warm and happy in my house with my family while the wind blew and the snow drifts formed.  Another thing to be thankful for - having this snow to melt to ward off drought.  Colorado is awesome because it snows and then the sun shines and melts it.  I love it here.

I learned a new skill this week -- by watching online tutorials (seriously, isn't the Internet awesome?) I learned how to hand finish my quilt binding.  I'm happy I added this to my new skills and look forward to working on improving it.

This upcoming week I'm choosing happiness.  I'm challenging myself to not complain, murmur, or whine.  At all.  About anything.
Sailing on to more happiness,

Photo Favorite

This boy has such a passionate love for football.  Not even blizzard conditions and winter storm warnings can keep him away.  He played with his two cousins today, coming inside every 10 minutes for them to warm up and then heading right back out.  Silly boys.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Nurture NO. 9

It was a good week.
We had a snow day, some good laughs, a lot of messes, activities, and time together.  We went sledding and played in the snow.  I started a snowball fight with my son and he thought that was pretty great.  I tried to loosen up and laugh more which makes everything more bearable.  Emma had a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese and Clark and Faye got to play along.  They loved that.

Notice the needs:  I have had some pretty huge opportunities to realize where I have been not doing very well meeting some needs for a few people who live here.  It is humbling to realize how much work I need to do in this area and it basically boils down to me tuning into what they need rather than what I WANT to have happen.  Why is it so hard to surrender my plan?

Understanding:  I made some good progress here.  I've been able to realize a lot about being defined by who we are rather than by an action we may take.  I have been working really hard to make sure I am not labeling my children as who they are by a few weak character traits they may have.  We all have those and yet that isn't who we are.

Read:  I finished reading a fun book this past week and started two more.  I love to read.  I love seeing my children reading on their own and I love that Emma is reading more and more now.  She is reading signs all over when we drive around and is able to read most of the words on her own when we read scriptures now.

Tune in:  I had a fairly good week at tuning in.  I was present in the moment, as well as really listening to my body to try to figure out how I'm going to get past this neck/nerve thing.

Use time Wisely.  I can always use work in this area.  I found that I didn't manage time extremely well this past and week and didn't take very good care of the house.

Reach out:  I had some intense parenting learning experiences this past week and I'm thankful for the patience of my husband as he helps me to remain more calm and think about their needs.  I have continued to give a lot of hugs and it helps.

Energy:  I'm gearing up for a major eating change next week and I know that it will be hard but good for me.  Must do it.

Now I am well into week 10 and I better just post this and move forward.
Sailing On,

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Photo Favorite

Beautiful eggs from a friend.  Now I REALLY want chickens.